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I’m gonna say upfront that this is tl;dr, so if you’re going to dismiss it based on that, don’t even bother reading. I’m exhausted and upset and I need to focus on real life stuff, so I’m not going to take the time to edit this down—plus I’ve been sitting on this for a year or so and have a lot to say.
People always say to ignore bullies. They said it when I was in elementary school and boys teased me until I cried. They said it at summer camp when boys spit in my hair. They said it in college when a guy in my chemistry class made a game of sexually harassing me (my girlfriend at the time did not say it, but told him off, and I’ll always be grateful to her for that even though the relationship was otherwise not great).
The thing is, ignoring bullies doesn’t make them go away. It makes them escalate until they get a response out of you. And then, once you reveal that they’ve hurt you, once you say publicly “these people are bullying me/my friends/others and it’s not okay,” then they can say “you’re drama queens lol why do you care about the opinions of some anons grow a thicker skin.”
But people can’t chose not to be upset by things. And even if you yourself have the hide of a rhino, if you have friends who don’t, and they’re targeted, you’d be a shitty friend not to feel on their behalf.
So, here goes. I’m going to write a long-ass post about why I more-or-less quit Les Miz fandom due to anxiety, and if that makes the bullies feel smug about my weakness, about my vulnerability, about the fact that I have feelings and clinical anxiety, about the fact that even though I’ve made mistakes I still don’t feel I deserve to be bullied and neither does anyone else—fuck them.
Because not talking about it—pretending that if I ignore them eventually they’ll get bored and Les Miz fandom will magically become fun again—isn’t doing a damn thing either. And I don’t think I’m alone, and I want other people who’ve felt the same way to know they’re not alone.
magicae replied to your post: “i wanna test out the new pens i bought today so tell me what to draw…”:Viktor reading a book IDK something Viktor? Viktor trying to be friendly with Minoo?
translation for my non-swedish friends:
viktor: “what are you reading?”
minoo: “the art of fucking off. (you should read it)”